Drawing My Thoughts

I just spent 10 minutes hanging out of my window trying to catch snowflakes on my mousemat to take a photo of, but my laptop started to get bombarded so i thought i'd best give up!

This is how I’m feeling today...

Calm and at peace. And a little bit up in the clouds.




I’ve been messaging this guy on myspace and I don’t think I’ve ever gotten to know someone so fast and enjoyed talking to them quite so much. It’s not just casual chatting, it is literally writing an essay or letter back and forth several times a day. I admit men do message me quite a lot on myspace, but only on a few occasions have I actually gone on to getting to know them well and becoming good friends. This guy however, I have so much in common with that it’s almost funny, it’s almost as if he’s my long lost brother or something (though I hope not!)

Anyway I’ve met various men off the internet in the past (always carefully!) but this guy lives 3 hours away from me so we haven’t met. I know it shouldn’t be possible to have feelings for someone if you’ve never met them, because no matter how well you know them in writing, the personality you mentally create for them will never be quite accurate unless you see them in person, but I can’t help it.

It’s also terrible timing because I have a plan and my plan is to be married to my career for several years at least before allowing myself to be distracted by meeting new men or finding space for another human to be part of my life, but I’m just so curious as to what meeting this guy would be like. I’m torn between not losing focus and not letting potentially awesome experiences pass me by.

Letting go…




Do you think it’s possible to have feelings for someone without having even met them? I don’t even know whether if we ever met he’d actually view me as more than a friend or not. But I’ve never before felt a connection with someone quite like this. Without even meaning to or realising, he seems to make my whole attitude towards life so positive and appreciative. I even feel like I’m starting to let go of the negative experiences in my past.

Regardless of what happens, this is how I feel right now-letting go, ready to start over :)